I hugged Dallin goodbye in the dental office parking lot. When I pictured sending my son off to college, it was not in a dental office parking lot. Yet life hands us beautiful situations. This was perfect for us. He drove off. I moved on with the dental appointments. Life continues, even without him. I thought it might have stopped. My heart sometimes feels like it does if I think about his empty room. The whole family feels the void. Kayden mentioned how sad it is to walk past Dallin's bedroom. Eli is constantly thinking of things to send him, and Drew asks me to send his "giraffe puzzle eraser" to him. The table is now set for five and a chair sits empty. Meanwhile Dallin is at school, smoothly working through all of his firsts. First housing payment, buying books, setting up appartment, dinner at a girls' apartment, finding his way on campus, studying harder than in highschool, and being independent. I love the experience (eventhough it is really his!)
As life moves on Kayden becomes homecoming King! He comes home with balloons to ask a lucky girl and before I know it he has an extremely handsome suit, wing-tip shoes, matching tie, a "corsage" and needs a ride to the dance because none of his friends have a drivers licence yet either. After the dance I sat in the car waiting to pick him up reminiscing about my highschool days, watching the kids come out of the dance with realities so different from mine. I look over and see Kayden walk out with his date, they look so young and inocent. It takes him a moment to offer his arm. I am filled with pleasure, being lucky enough to glimpse this moment in his life. He is handsome, tender, and confident. I love being a mom.
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