light

I awoke from another nightmare at my usual time 3:15 am. I turned to Bryan, caught in the moment of not knowing if I had been dreaming or if it had all been real, and asked him who he was. He replied " Merlin murderer!" The man from my dream? I lay there feeling the dream's reality on the tip of my tongue, yet not quite able to put it together with why I was laying in bed with Bryan who knew about Merlin Murderer. I clearly heard him say that name. No other rational explanation than I was still half asleep. Was I safe or was I in bed next to the man who was about to murder three people? The question haunted me for a few moments longer. I then had reason return to my mind but not my body. The anxiety remained tainting my thoughts for the next hour, life felt unsafe. Exhausted with the relentless hook of fear I reached for my ipod and put in my earbuds to listen to Deepok, my favorite voice these days. Just before Christmas Deepok Chopra offered a free 21 day meditation challenge. I have found meditating the tool that releases me from the hook. "Welcome to day 20" he began. I was slowly focusing on my breath, breathing in a beautiful green healing light swirling through my body touching on any tightness, softening and healing, breathing out the smokey fear. Todays meditation was visualizing healing. Soon I was five years in the future, feeling amazing. "Light" was the one word that described how it felt. My body was light and limber, healthy and strong, moved with ease. I felt the light lifting my thoughts, mind, and soul to lightness. Light flowed from my being, and lit my surroundings. I had King Midis's touch, everything I touched started to light up. The light grew from small chrystals sparkling around and through me to great, radiant explosions filling my home, neighborhood, town, country, and wrapping the world. Basking in the feeling of all this light I finished the meditation. Wow! This was beautiful.